What You Don't Know About Me...
Did you know I almost didn’t launch my photography business this year? I felt this prompting in my spirit that I needed to move forward, but I hesitated. I love doing photography, but my life was already so full. I was afraid. I knew I could take beautiful photos. I was doing that of my family and friends already. The thing that made me unsure was showing people my mess. People would know I didn’t have it altogether all of the time.
You see, when you live on a farm and your family is managing it along with doing ministry full-time and raising small children, you can’t possibly get to everything. There are always things that need to be done. Either time or money or both don’t allow you do everything you want to do.
Farms are messy places. They are beautiful, awe inspiring, and full of life, but that’s what creates the mess. You can’t have one without the other.
I was so afraid if we invited people in that all they would see is the mess. I didn’t want to be judged for all we haven’t done. I knew how much I wanted to do. I kept thinking in my head, “Well one day, I’ll do photography like I want to.”
When a friend asked me to do baby photos for one of the cutest babies I have ever seen, I agreed. It went so well! We had a ton of fun in the process, and the images we produced together are still some of my favorites.
I learned something valuable.
Loving on people where you are with what you have is enough.
One day may never come. All we can do is offer the world what we have right now, because that’s all that is guaranteed.
Here I am in all of my mess. I’m loving people and showing the beauty in our mundane. I’m inviting you to do the same.
Everyone won’t get you, and that’s okay. People who make a difference in this world are rarely understood. We learned that from Jesus. You can love anyway.
In the end, you will be glad you shared what you had with those you could. Your life will be more beautiful, and theirs will be too.
God will be honored.
Every time we love those God places before us well, we make earth a little more like the Kingdom that is coming.
That’s the heart of what I want my photography to be. I want it to be a glimpse of heaven on earth. Moments captured to show the joy that is coming, the peace that will prevail, and the beauty that will be made known when all that is ordinary is majestic and complete.
Abby Cirlot, my amazing 10 year old daughter, gets credit for all of the beautiful photos in this post. She was more than happy to play with my camera and help me out. If you don’t want to hire me for your family photos, you should definitely consider her!
Anna Cirlot is a pastor’s wife, homeschooling mom, and farmer. She is also a web designer and photographer (Anna Cirlot Photography & Design). She is happiest sipping on a mug of hot coffee sitting in the grass surrounded by chickens and goats while her kids play outdoors. She blogs for fun at the Grace Kissed Life sharing what she is learning about God and His faithfulness.