A Prayer to See
Since I had an unplanned hysterectomy at the end of December, the kids and I have watched far more movies than usual. My energy has been lagging unexplainably some days worse than others, and by late evening, a movie is often in order. The other night I asked Bryan to pick up a movie from Netflix that I "thought" was a family friendly movie.
Much to ALL of our surprise, it was really a pretty twisted kids' tale. There were children with supernatural powers who lived hiding in time loops for decades. Only a rarely gifted individual could see the monsters that they were actually hiding from. So, in this movie, the ordinary boy, who thought he had nothing to offer, was actually invaluable. Because he could see the evil creatures that hunted and killed the supernatural children, he could do what no one else could do. He could stop them. The creepiness of the story was only enhanced by the fact that throughout much of the movie, the monsters were invisible, but their effects were everywhere.
Tomorrow, I meet with my neurologist to hopefully get a name for my monster. For the past 8 years, my health has been all over the place. I have names for a lot of symptoms: migraines, miscarriages, abnormal hormone levels, loss of vision, vertigo, extreme exhaustion, etc. We really don't fully understand how all of the symptoms fit into the bigger picture yet completely. We just know how all of these symptoms have impacted our lives. In some seasons, we have gotten along fairly "normal" for us. In others, these symptoms have pushed me flat on my back.
We do have more of an idea than we used to. We are hoping that the most recent tests I have had done will help us "see" the monster and get rid of it.
Pray with us tomorrow that we get the answers we need to help me get on a firmer road to healing. If God doesn't heal me completely on earth, He is still good. It would be wonderful to feel really good again and have the energy to take care of my family as well as I want to be able to take care of them.
Thanks for being on this journey with us. Sharing my health situation with you makes me feel vulnerable, but I believe in the power of prayer. I pray that by sharing God is glorified and you are encouraged. We are incredibly blessed to have so many people care about us and live life with us.